Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Summer Solstice.....

My head hurts.....I stayed up too late drinking beer. The sun came up too fast ... the sky lighting up at 3:30am..... Well I guess the rest of the days after today will be shorter every day. Take advantage of it while it lasts......

Monday, June 19, 2006

Finally The Stanley Cup Is In Reach!!!!!

Tonight is Game 7 with the Edmonton Oilers and the Carolina Hurricanes. Canada is finally in reach of the cup to bring it home where it belongs. If there was any team that deserves it, it is Edmonton. The team has the least amount of money, was in the lower half of the western conference standings for most of the season, and have no really big superstars on the team. Although they knocked out my Canucks, I have been cheering them on since. I cheer for most Canadian teams (not all, ahem) because of the hard time they have staying above water in the American market. GOOD LUCK OILERS!!!!!! Canada is cheering for you!

Gosh I hope Ididn't jinx it! Sorry Edmonton, you had a great run!

Thursday, June 15, 2006


Function: noun
1 : an act of crushing

2 : the quantity of material crushed
3 a : a crowding together (as of peo
ple) b : CROWD, MOB; especially : a crowd of people pressing against one another
4 : an intense and usually passing infatuation ; also : the object of infatuation

Experiencing a crush has interesting effects on your life. It's amazing how easily one can fall into a crush. Is it called a crush because that is the feeling when the recipient of the crush (or victim) reject any advances? I find it incredible that this phantom infatuation can be so powerful at times, no matter whether you are a giggly little teen or a grown woman. It is like a tractor beam pulling your millennium falcon towards the death star; like the strongest vortex vacuum dragging you into its rotator heads---you'll be a shredded mess once you pass through the nozzle.

I can't explain how this even happened in the first place. It did happen almost a year ago, and hasn't really stopped. He is a friend and I met him about 2 years ago. It started out as just a simple acquaintance, but when he is in you day almost everyday, you kinda become friends out of repetition. "Friends" was great for awhile. I enjoyed having him as a friend, and I am sure that is what he thinks I am. I think it started with just a few words to him, said by another person. This other person was his focus since he met her. She just passed him off to me and left work. Simply, "Now you have someone to drink with", and that was it. For some reason it was like magic pixie dust left her hand and spread it on me with those seven words. The tractor beam was weak then but now I can't fight it. It's insane!

The grass is not greener on the other side. I have been questioned by a friend who knows about my childish crush. Is he any different than what you have right now? I immediately I say "of course", but at closer look I know he is no different than my current man. The pros are easy to find: funny, cute, great job, generous, friendly, tough when needed, powerful, sports loving, a man's man, fun, etc. The cons are harder but there: distracted, mobile in his job, bachelor, beer-belly (although I think it's kinda cute), booze-hound, never serious, gets drunk too much, etc. Same kinda situation with my current state and at least I can depend on my man and what we have already.

I just can't get this outta my head and it's driving me crazy. If I do move to the island with my man, start a new life, will this crush just disappear? It can be a bit destructive to our current relationship, although I am the destructive one not him. Every time I stop all communication with "Mr. Crush" he pulls me back in out of the blue. I finally had enough of him at one point and avoided him as much as I could. He texted me and called me. He's acted strange around me when it is just us and I am wondering if there really is something there. WAIT that's the crush taking over again.

Weirdly enough, I can tell you all about infatuations, how they begin and end, and yet I am unable to control myself. I know we have free will to do what we want, but in this case, I wonder if this is just supposed to happen. If I can't stop is it more of an addiction rather than an infatuation? I am addicted to him and cold turkey is not working. I have to want to quit, I know I can't force myself to quit. Maybe there should be a health warning across his chest?

I always wondered why he is never with a woman, why I never hear about dates or women he wants to date. I have never heard anything close to this topic. Strange. And no, he's not gay. What could possibly be hidden under that ball hat he wears? What is the secret? Why is he perpetually a bachelor? It seems as if he doesn't want any kind of commitment, because that would mean he would be responsible for someone more than himself. His a bit selfish, now that I look at it. He only calls when he needs a drinking buddy and his other friends aren't answering the phone.

Okay, now that I got that off my chest.....Yeah, whatever, it's still there. Errrrr

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

A New and Interesting Site To Check Out...

As I was chatting with my chat -pals on the eagle cam chat site, one of them pointed out an interesting live cam from Africa. You can move the camera left and right and see all of the animals that visit a watering hole in Botswana. Monkeys, birds etc visit for a refreshing drink. Check it out.

Other sites are the loon site from Alaska and the stork nest from Germany. Fantastic sound and video of their new borns.

Work is great and we have hired two new people. World Cup has not affected us in the least but the NHL hockey finals are pretty busy.

Not much else to say and no pics at all as I am no very creative on this day. Sorry.....

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Here Comes the Sun.....

Man I slept too long today. I went to bed pretty late though. The side effects of working night shifts. Anyways, I woke up this afternoon (LOL) and the sun was trying to peak out from the cloud overcast. I wonder if this is a sign of things to come.

Things are looking a bit more up at work, although for my new Chef, probably not. He hasn't had a day off in forever, and I know how he feels. At my previous job I was in charge and did 25 days in a row but some of those were much longer shifts, and definitely much busier. Well, the bar manager spoke to me and said that there has to be some way to get him a day off. His mood is getting more desperate and he is snapping a lot. I looked over the schedule and found a day on Tuesday I could do for him. A DAY SHIFT! I left him a note and hopefully he will accept the suggestion, and he can leave me a list of stuff I need to do. The only real worry I have is the World Cup Football matches happening at 9am (France vs Switzerland) and 12pm (Brazil vs Croatia). I would feel better if the teams were less popular, like Angola or Togo. Hopefully, I don't get too slammed with breakfast orders and orders coming in.

Speaking of looking up, this is my chance to prove my skills. Perhaps this chance will allow me to see what I can do to make suggestions on the schedule. We are definitely not really in need of two people until 11pm on Thursday nights. Yes, a slam may come from out of the blue, but that is not a regular event. Darn, then you have to clean up the mess afterwards and actually make 8 hours in your shift. The new guy from Australia is awesome. He will pick it all up in seconds (like me) and that is great. Now we need 2 more people part-time to fill in the gaps. Or one full-time and one part-time. Anyways, this glimpse of sunshine makes me think everything will be alright soon.

Sebby has not changed his routine in the hallway but hopefully, following the instructions from a website on deterring him without discipline, will help. It's not so bad laying out the newspapers. At least I'm not cleaning the damn carpet everyday. His Science Diet food I got yesterday to mix with his Prescription Diet (both the same brand) is doing wonders for his appetite. He is eating much more. I've always wondered why companies sell food that is so bad for pets, for example Fancy Feast. It's like feeding your child doughnuts everyday. If Hills Cat Food makes Prescription Diet I assume their Science Diet is similar but less clinical in ingredients. I compared the nutrients contents of both and they are very close, so I am mixing in the prescription food to get him a bit bulked up, if that is possible. He's still skin and bones.

Well, I have to go now.

Go Oilers Go. Game Three.

Friday, June 9, 2006

Newspapers and Cat Poo....

Okay...I'm starting to get frustrated with this cat. It is now a regular event.....I leave newspaper down all the time and he just poos the hallway...why? It's driving me STINKING CRAZY! I just caught him trying to do it in the hallway. So I picked him up and put him near his box and he did it in there. Then when he was done I praised him. I hope that helps......

Thursday, June 8, 2006

Another Rainy Day....

Woke up this morning to the cold and I thought it was supposed to be sunny all week. Vancouverites are so used to this. After the last two days of beautiful sunshine and warmth, this cold dark day is not what I wanted. I thought it was dissappointing, waking up to this drab weather. I had to put the heat on again! I am so cold...Brrrrr....Summer is having a hard time getting started and it makes me want to crawl back under the covers and go back to sleep.

As I am writing this blog, while watching the eaglets on the eagle cam from Saanich, a commotion happened outside my window. This usually means an eagle is around. Just as I looked up past my monitor, an eagle flew by with seagulls and crows in tow. Vancouver is so fantastic that way. You don't even have to leave your apartment to see the wildlife around you. At dusk, bats fly by catching all the little bugs in the air, it's amazing.

Well, not much else to say other than I'M FREEZING! I want summer back.

Tuesday, June 6, 2006

Vacation...from blogging....

Where the hell have I been? Why have I deserted this little snippet of the world wide web? Well, I have a life and sometimes, blogging just gets in the way. It is my day off and I got up early to have time to do many things, including updating this damn space which I promised to update daily........or not.

Since I last blogged many things have happened. Let's begin with work. Well, the Chef, who hired me, was let go, which put me in quite a weird dilemma. If you do remember, the Sous Chef was driving me crazy, with his abnormal obsession with cleanliness and unhappiness. He gave his notice and was pretty content with his decision. Unfortunately, the Chef decided that coming in to work was optional, and he was let go. Many reasons for the firing but the Sous Chef was asked to stay as the Chef and I really began to think about leaving. Funny thing is, he became the nicest guy in the whole world after the work shuffle. Before he had nothing to say to me and now he and I are like two peas in a pod. Anyways, work is good, boring at times, but summer is here (pretty much) and business is picking up. I've finally graduated to alternating closing shifts.

Peter has had some devastating news recently. His brother called and told us his Dad has just been diagnosed with cancer. He took him to the hospital but is angry for telling him he should have check in way earlier. He has dropped down to 130 lbs in no time and is no well, according to Peters brother. Additionally, when he phones home, Vancouver Island, his Mom acts as if nothing really is happening. This is all like deja vu to me, as my Mom passed away from cancer two and a half years ago. She didn't see a doctor until it was too late and it caught up on her after a long two year fight. I can say that those feelings of anxiousness have returned when the phone rings late, and soon it will be anytime. Hopefully Peter can talk some sense into his Dad on his visit to the island this week. I know that, with my past experience, I can help him as much as possible emotionally.

On another note, I have a feeling he has known his Dad was sick for weeks from his unusual spending/drinking habits. Too months in a row, he has bounced cheques for rent, and even though I am making less money than him, I seem to be carrying this relationship financially. It's putting a bit of a damper on having fun, especially when I am constantly using my credit to cover shortages of money in my account. Yes, my iPod was a nice present but now he owes me $300 from the last bounced cheque, which was the cost of the iPod. Errrrr.

My credit has also been dinged to cover the veterinarian costs for my cat Sebastian, who is becoming my very expensive pet. His meds and prescription food, on top of the blood tests, also cost a bit of money. He's now not on daily pills as the dosage was escaping his body somehow and not working. Now he has a topical ointment I have to put in his ear daily. The prescription food is not making him happy and now he's decided to rebel by shitting in the front hallway every day. The mess is driving me crazy as is the smell and clean up, but how do you tell a cat to stop leaving the smelly pile on the carpet when he does it when you are out? Auggggggh.

I went to see the eagle nest in Stanley Park today and was happy to see two eaglets popping their heads up and down in the nest. They stretched their wings a bit and Mom sat over head protecting them from the crows doing some aerial divebombing displays, equal to the planes at an airshow. Relaxing in the sunshine while watching this nest was quite relaxing.

After only 4 hours of sleep last night, it's time to nap before meeting up with my friend for a bit of beer and jager. Hopefully I'll be a bit more alert after waking up early and getting my shaggy hair chopped down to it's normal length, a perky pixie cut.

Anyways, I hope I can write more regularly again.....